Showing posts with label depressed. Show all posts
Showing posts with label depressed. Show all posts

Monday, February 2, 2009

eff me,right?

I'm in a bad place. Right about now I want to curl up inot a ball and cry. Shit I'm hoping its PMS. Its not taking much to make me emotional, to make me want to run away. Forgive me if I'm not making sense, I'm holding back the waterworks as we speak. I need sleep, I need a hug. Student council couldn't even take my mind off it.
I let somebody copy my work, long story short mine got shredded by teacher.She told me not to let anyone use my mind. As long as I still have the shit why does that matter. Oh how I wish it was spring so I could go sit outside. I just need to do schoolwork. I need some motivation. That shouldn't make me feel like this. Maybe its me listening to everybody talking about their prom dates and I know I won't have one. I should just take Mad-nut. She's better than a boyfriend anyway. I'm just feeling lonely and needy.
My mama sweating me about cleaning my room. Yeah I'm a girl the shit should be clean but damn. I simply don't have time to clean it and she keep going in there to upset herself even more. Telling me she taking my phone,I could care less. I'll care when she takes my zune, then we'll have a problem. I still feel like breaking down. I haven't cried in weeks. Stuff just isn't going right. And only one person cares. Thanks becks:)
Your resident down-in-the-dumps Loveaholic,
Level:)